I have come to realize, not accept yet, but realize that there are things that I sometimes want to do and things that I need to do. There is a huge difference. Like I really want to go running, but what trumps that? I really need to clean my house. I really want to have just a quiet moment to myself. I really need to be with and play with my kids every moment that they are awake.

So this is the realization that I have about running and my body. Even though I have no excuses why I don't get up in the early morning (Luella is sleeping about 11 hours a night), I am just way too tired. Call me crazy, it's not like I have a million things going on during the day with 3 kids to take care of, a house to keep clean and everything else that comes along with being a stay at home mom. Which I love, don't get me wrong. But back to my running and the body I would have if I had all the time in the world to run and work out and the body that I will have to settle with for right now because of my lack of time.

That is the sad truth for me right now. I have signed up for a 1/2 marathon in March and to tell you the truth, I have not been training like I should. I am just hoping that the running after my kids, cleaning my house, driving carpool, ect will get me ready enough for the race. I average about 1 run a week, which isn't much.

So I just keep imagining what I might look like with that body that runs all the time. But for now I will just watch what I eat, and keep on doing what I am doing and hope that it is enough. After all isn't that about what every mom feel at some point?

It is all I can do and I hope it is enough!!!!!

(what I want to do is sit here and browse the net, but what I really need to do it get my sweet baby and give her a bottle!! happy blogging days)